numb

i'm desperate.
i'm looking for love but i'm denying na i'm looking for love.

i don't believe in finding love on line.
but....

of course some rules are meant to be broken.
sabi ko nga i'm desperate, i will try looking for love on line.
now, i'm cringing when the thought of finding love on line crosses my mind.
really?
love on line?
funny.

then you came.
i'm not expecting anything.

you call me daddy.
i call you bunso.

how cheesy can you get?
but still, i don't feel anything.
spark?
magic?
the chuvachuchu moment?

i saw your pictures.
you are hot in my world.
but still, i don't feel anything.
spark?
magic?
the chuvachuchu moment?

pero i told myself, kung ito magiging unang boyfriend ko, okay na.
yeah. that's stupid and lousy...

until we meet.
sabi ko, if you don't like me in person, sabihin mo na agad.
madali naman akong kausap bilang i eat rejections for breakfast.

it was late.
you were impatient.
i told you what do you want?
sabi mo okay na ang large fries at spaghetti sa mc do.
okay.

then finally we meet.
you're cute. really.
but still, i don't feel anything.
spark?
magic?
the chuvachuchu moment?

but i enjoyed our conversation.
about you.
about me.
as if we knew each other.

we decided to watch a korean horror film.
i love horror films.
it was funny.
but the best part is...
tumabi ka sa akin.
sliding like a ghoul hunting for his victim.
skins touching fully dressed is sexier than nude.
we kissed.
i tasted the spaghetti.

but still, i don't feel anything.
spark?
magic?
the chuvachuchu moment?

the characters in the film are dying one by one.
our breaths slipping through the night.
fully dressed still.

but still, i don't feel anything.