wake me up when december ends

it was cold.
it is cold.
the december wind chills my body... and it freezes my heart and soul.
yeah, another fuckin seasonal affective syndrome.

december is a festive month. well we all long for december. it is as if happiness never ends and merrymaking is a requirement. but my december is not so welcoming.

december starts with letter G. 
= goodbyes.

two of my closest friends are leaving.
si argel at jc.
actually si arg babalik naman at magcecelebrate lang ng pasko sa land down under. kaso si jc may two year contract sa UAE.

and our annual christmas party is yet to come.
gosh imagine two of my closest friends are ofws na.
meaning, taon-taon may dalawang kulang na sa amin.

pero syempre masaya ako for them.
argel will spend christmas with his mother sa australia for the first time kasi usually dito umuuwi nanay niya o hindi uuwi at all. tapos si jc, matagal na niyang pangarap ito kaya go lang ng go.

december is cold.
really cold.


grabe. i never imagined that this month will cause me. lol
ang exag. but i guess i fell in my own trap.
i want to elaborate but the complication of my feelings is so overwhelming and i can't help but shut up.

anyway chinat ako ng nambasted sakin na frat guy dati. friends naman kami so keri lang. may habit lang siya na minsan nakakairita lang. haha aba si kuya hobby kasi niya sakin ikuwento yung mga nakakadates niya... as in. kaya minsan hindi ko alam kung nananadya ba ito or what? actually wala naman akong issue ang kaso parang ang insensitive lang. parang sinasabi niya na 'kaya kita binasted kasi hindi ka kagaya nila.' well hayun wala siyang nakatuluyan sa mga iyon. and honestly parang okay lang pala na binasted niya ako at friends lang kami. haha

december to remember


given na siguro ang nangyaring bagyo sa mindanao na hindi naman sanay nadadaanan ng bagyo.
kaya laking gulat nila nung dinaanan sila ni typhoon sendong. kaya grabe ang cagayan de oro at iligan cities. hardly hit talaga.

pero ano nga bang ginagawa ni p-noy?

anyway...
unfair naman kung hindi ko ika-count yung mga nagpangiti sa akin ngayong buwan.
1. exchange gifts!
2. new books! as in. :) (hunger games trilogy, dogeaters, battle royale, ilustrado... etc)
3. great bargains.
4. christmas parties.
5. NEW PET! :) may nagregalo saking pet... isang guinea pig. i call her PRIM. :)


howell two weeks to go pa..
i hope mas positive ang hatid ng buwang ito.


it's christmas after all.

unless grinch is lurking, ready to steal my holidays away.




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thinking of relaunching my blog.
hmm thinking of a new concept...