here lies the nobody who will never be forgotten

matagal-tagal ding nagtago si haring araw pero sa kaniyang muling pagpapakita, nagpamalas siya ng liwanag at init na nanunuot hanggang balat.

ito ang sumalubong sa akin linggo ng umaga, tila isa akong bampirang pilit nagiiwas sa pagtama ng araw sa aking balat. shet late na naman ako, kagaya na lamang nung unang araw ng biography writing workshop. shoot. twice in a row huh? kailangan kong magcab or else mas lalo akong malelate. boo. si manong pinaikot ikot pa ako. pakshet.

nagmadaling naglakad, pinundot ang up button then number six. yeah, deja vu. just like yesterday late na naman ako. nicanor perlas just smiled at me,shet nakakahiya. dali-dali akong umupo.

i thought biography writing is just as simple as writing about yourself. parang nagblablog ka lang ganun pero hindi pala ganoon kadali iyon kasi biography writing involves quantum physics, chemistry, biology and psychology.

kasi ang pagsusulat ng biography ay nangangailangan pa pala ng bonggang enlightenment dapat in one ang physical at ang essence or the spirit and you have to find your purpose in life pala and then share it to the world. mahahanap mo ang iyong purpose daw if you go to your superconscious  na beyond pa sa subconscious then you will touch your essence or spirit.

it's kinda hard to follow dahil sir nick related it with quantum physics dahil nga connected daw ang lahat sa universe na binase din niya sa chemistry, biology at psychology pero in essence yun nga dapat you have to tap your spirit to discover your purpose. well butit nakakasunod ako pero minsan yun nga nakakaligaw dahil mataas ang concept pero the exercises made it simple...

sir nick asks some questions that may help us reach our superconscious and we have to concentrate and close our eyes. he will help us to know our purpose and dig deeper within us.. he will guide sa aming journey out there.

so pumikit ako. naririnig ko ang kaniyang boses, malumanay. ito lang ang bumabasag sa katahimikan ng silid. he shoots images at us... at nakikita ko naman ang mga ito... mountains. seas. rivers. city lights... gaya na lamang ng napapanood natin sa nat geo at discovery. may mga instructions si sir... we will talk to a divine being... then tuloy pa rin ang images of nature... suddenly something white appeared...


so ito na ba si divine thingie?


hala. nawala ang mga images. basta may puti na tila patak ng tubig pero kulay puti, not transparent, then pumatak ito and made ripples of water na puti. and the weird thing is, wala akong marining, hindi ko na marinig si sir nick. as in! what i see is a vivid image then biglang may kasamang stinging sound, parang static or yung parang sa mic kapag mali ang hawak?

'what will you do to stop these disasters?' tanong daw ni divine being.
'kaya ko ba?' sagot ko.


then i can see the images again at naririnig ko na ulit si sir. is that it? or did i fall asleep?

after nun, we have to answer some questions and this time kailangan na naming isulat as free journal meaning kung ano ang unang pumasok sa utak. sir nick told me na nasilip ko na nga ang aking essence and through my written answers i interpret it na may uncertainty. when i was asked about my purpose i told him i dont know. maybe because im just 23 turning 24? or baka wala akong purpose in life? haha. kasi nga i answered the divine being na kung kaya ko ba? then the patterns of my written answers show uncertainty nga. whats with the future?

but sir is amused. it's the beginning daw. and i can't wait for this all new journey and new world view because of the said workshop. i don't know my purpose yet... baka maging isang bampira na takot sa araw? or maging isang tibak? hay. or baka wala ngang saysay ang buhay? hmmm

baka ang sagot ko sa tanong na kung anong isusulat ko sa aking epitaph might give me a clue?

"here lies the nobody who will never be forgotten."